Okay, y'all, this is a dig deep, get real, raw post for me. I'm going to put it all out there. So don't expect anything pretty.
I have hesitated for so long to write another post because it's been so long and how do you come back from yet another failure? It seems that no matter how many things I feel "called" to do, I fail.. I do not remain consistent.. I quit. Yup, that's me. But here's the thing. For the last few months I have been worn out. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I have a 9 month old, you moms get that, right? Just now as I sat down to write this, my 6 year old made a loud noise and the baby woke up about an hour early from his nap. That's life. I should be calm and just roll with it, right? Yeah... yeah, I should. But I don't. I feel empty.
I read a graphic the other day that said, "You can't pour from an empty cup. Take care of yourself." It's a little laughable right now. My question is how? How do you take care of yourself when so many others need so much of you? For instance, first thing in the morning, the baby wants breakfast, the sister wants a drink... Then you go to the barn and there is a deafening chorus of horse, goat, pig and cat hollers. All wanting something. By the end of the day I'm so happy to have my husband come home but that means I need to make dinner and dinner means dishes. And a shower? Maybe if I have the energy left.
I'm not writing this to be a "woe is me" post but to hopefully encourage some of you who may be dealing with the same thing. You see, life is a daily thing. It needs to be taken moment by moment to avoid overwhelm. My life isn't going to drastically change tomorrow, at least I pray not. I'm not going to walk out on all of these people and dreams that demand so much of me. I love them too much. I'm so thankful for them. So how does one get past this?
Breathe. Just breathe. There is a song by Jonny Diaz (find it https://youtu.be/hnjeMwxFuBA) that has become my theme. Take the time (MAKE the time) to read Scripture and memorize it. Claim it, pray over it and live it. God knows what you and I are going through and you know what, it's a season. One day we will look back and know that we were strong and we overcame the weary days. Here are a few of the verses that have been so helpful for me lately...
"Come UNTO ME, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I WILL give you rest." Matthew 11:28 KJV
"And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." Galatians 6:9 KJV
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13 KJV
...oh, dear friend, we are not alone in this. Never. There is always Someone to go to when you feel that your cup is empty and no one is there for you. That Friend who never leaves our sides just wants us to come to Him. He will give you the rest that you need. One day at a time.
If you are in need of prayer, please feel free to comment below or email me. I would love to pray for you. Thank you for taking the time to read what was on my heart.
Much love,
Andrea
I have hesitated for so long to write another post because it's been so long and how do you come back from yet another failure? It seems that no matter how many things I feel "called" to do, I fail.. I do not remain consistent.. I quit. Yup, that's me. But here's the thing. For the last few months I have been worn out. Physically, mentally, emotionally. I have a 9 month old, you moms get that, right? Just now as I sat down to write this, my 6 year old made a loud noise and the baby woke up about an hour early from his nap. That's life. I should be calm and just roll with it, right? Yeah... yeah, I should. But I don't. I feel empty.
I read a graphic the other day that said, "You can't pour from an empty cup. Take care of yourself." It's a little laughable right now. My question is how? How do you take care of yourself when so many others need so much of you? For instance, first thing in the morning, the baby wants breakfast, the sister wants a drink... Then you go to the barn and there is a deafening chorus of horse, goat, pig and cat hollers. All wanting something. By the end of the day I'm so happy to have my husband come home but that means I need to make dinner and dinner means dishes. And a shower? Maybe if I have the energy left.
I'm not writing this to be a "woe is me" post but to hopefully encourage some of you who may be dealing with the same thing. You see, life is a daily thing. It needs to be taken moment by moment to avoid overwhelm. My life isn't going to drastically change tomorrow, at least I pray not. I'm not going to walk out on all of these people and dreams that demand so much of me. I love them too much. I'm so thankful for them. So how does one get past this?
Breathe. Just breathe. There is a song by Jonny Diaz (find it https://youtu.be/hnjeMwxFuBA) that has become my theme. Take the time (MAKE the time) to read Scripture and memorize it. Claim it, pray over it and live it. God knows what you and I are going through and you know what, it's a season. One day we will look back and know that we were strong and we overcame the weary days. Here are a few of the verses that have been so helpful for me lately...
"Come UNTO ME, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I WILL give you rest." Matthew 11:28 KJV
"And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not." Galatians 6:9 KJV
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart." Jeremiah 29:11-13 KJV
...oh, dear friend, we are not alone in this. Never. There is always Someone to go to when you feel that your cup is empty and no one is there for you. That Friend who never leaves our sides just wants us to come to Him. He will give you the rest that you need. One day at a time.
If you are in need of prayer, please feel free to comment below or email me. I would love to pray for you. Thank you for taking the time to read what was on my heart.
Much love,
Andrea